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how i spent my summer vacation [11 Mar 2007|07:59pm] here's what I think is going to happen this break. I'm going to finish off the very very last of my pot one night, play a lot of halo, eat a sammich and pass out with a little bit of jelly on the side of my mouth. then I'm goign to disappear for a day or so and do as I please. I will most definitely be investigating this alleged kosher restaurant that google informed me of off callaghan. I won't be here. I mean, I'll be here, and I may even be with you, but I won't be here. yeeeah the more clothes you wear the crazier ppl think you are (unless you're fat). the less you talk simply for the sake of filling the silence the less enjoyable you are. the more you try to make of yourself and your life the more you have to 'tone it down' bec no one likes to see it. or maybe they do, they just respond with the kind of crap that makes a turtle go back into his shell and a pheonix revert to ash. I realized last night, call me naive and laugh if you will, that you can't believe EVERYTHING that comes out of another person's mouth. whaaaaat. what doyou gain by lying? what are you trying to hide? this was a shock to me but I guess not everyone is such a square. the deeper you go, the harder it is. it's just more reasons I'm not like everyone else. yeah, that sucks, I wish I could enjoy the same things in the same ways as I used to pretend I did. but it's like faking an orgasm. you feel nothing, it ends quicker and all they get is a fake satisfaction and ego boost for doing nothign for you. that sounds harsh. but at least you can believe it's the truth. 3 comments|post comment

woof [03 Feb 2007|11:03pm] [ mood | clean ] that's the last time I use that word. let's backtrack and hit 'slow-mo' yeah? I met someone. I met someone else. Someone else took me to israel. i met lots of people. I grew a lot. I hiked a lot. I got fat. i've got a life and i'm doing something with it. I love every single thing about it, even the 'fires I'd like to put out with my own piss'. there's a reason I'm here and I'm seeing more and more of the plan every day and I've come to terms with a lot of things, even the things that haven't happened yet. total time: just over 3 months. they say the end of the first trimester is the last chance to make the Choice. guess I'm stuck with it. I'm not pregnant. does anyone ever get sick of hearing abt my life? I seriously think it's too great and I am unspeakable lucky...that must get annoying by the sound of everyone else's lives. I know you guys love your lives, i'd just like you to remember that now and then. makes for much more pleasant reading, no? diet starts tomorrow. i think i've got pneumonia. and carpal tunnel. ...it's all good though. how are you? post comment

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